Love on youtube ;D

So these are my current FAVORITE videos on youtube.

Bad Romance-Lady Gaga

Somebody to Love- Leighton Meester HOT! HOT! HOT!

Mr. Brightside-The Killers HOW CUTE IS THE FROMTMAN!!??

It's hard to say Goodbye...

So I've been watching Will and Grace for quite a bit now and I absolutely adore the show :)

I can relate to each of the characters and as the days have flown by, I've grown fond of them and I've formed like this quirky bond. Its been my "go-to" show for the past few days. Every time my self esteem hits rock bottom, Will, Grace, Karen and Jack can be trusted to bring my spirits back up. I've actually gotten used to watching the show as the last thing I do before I sleep.

I love how fabulous Karen is and how her character is this raging alcoholic with a beautiful heart and how Jack actually admires Will behind all the fat jokes. How Grace and Will are understand each other and how each one of them loves the other so much. Rosario and Karen cannot not bring a smile to your face. I've grown accustomed to the characters and almost live vicariously through them. I want to date someone like Vince, kiss someone like Grace kisses them and be as rich (and obnoxious) as Karen!

But one thing I've noticed myself doing is actively avoiding the last two or three episodes. I always do that with shows I'm streaming and I like. I think its because I don't want to be without the show, I'm very much the kind of person who loves being alone watching TV. The telly is a friend who stays with you and asks no questions. I hate talking about my worries in any case and TV is a great option in a situation like that, ever supportive.

So to end this post and prevent myself from sounding like a complete loner, I will say that probably because I know that a series finale will provide closure and thus END my relationship with the characters, I tend to delay it as much as possible.

I've never liked goodbyes anyway...

The "Looks" Factor

I don't know if its being this age or being shallow but recently, a lot seems to depend on looks. I mean a large amount of how much people like/respect you is dependent on if you'r HOT or not! See, I'm this average looking plain Joe type and I'm happy with that...or am I? :S

All of a sudden, there is SO much focus on your body and how "sexy" you are or how cute you are or how charming you are and a lot less on the person you are. I know for a fact that good looking people get away with a lot more than us not so good looking types and it's really frustrating.

Also, as a reflex, vanity is become more and more prevalent. Now, don't get me wrong, I love me some dressin' up and looking good, but being full of myself, that ain't how I roll!!

So many of them put on completely fake personalities and get away with it and how!! They're suddenly all cool and using all those phrases they see on TV and apparently pulling it off, because it seems to be working. It leaves me a little nauseous and a lot irritated, because I try not to put on any airs or be any different than I really am, sometimes to the extent of coming on a bit strong. That's who I am, take it or leave it...and a lot of people just leave it...

Is this how it is everywhere?

:'D

So, I've been really broody lately and I was thinking about my childhood and I was reminded of the days when I used to ride...

Those were great days, because my love for the horse is unparalleled, but now because of "bodily constraints", I've been shy to re-start.

I remember riding in classes and competing silently (sometimes not so silently) with each other, and trying to garner as many compliments from our trainer. I miss being a child, so carefree and more importantly so oblivious to everything around me. Going to the club just to ride, or flirt with the cute girl ( or attempt anyway! :P).

I miss the days, when on the way to a particularly scary lesson, I'd feel queasy and "sleepy" the whole time and I would just hope the car ride would never end. I miss the Sundays when I'd be woken up at 5 by Papa to attend the morning class. Those classes were particularly taxing, my dad's friends would take those classes and you had to be prepared to go home with your legs in 300 pieces.

I miss trying my very hardest to make conversation with this girl I had a crush on for the LONGEST time...it's still lingering :P I miss this girl who for some reason would never let go of me once she saw me!! I miss Horse Shows when all the kids would hang together being utterly random...and the best part was that a lot of us were around thirteen-ish and just discovering the joys of communicating with members of the opposite gender. And this was a full fledged affair lasting three days dawn to dusk and everyone came, and I mean EVERYONE!! It was probably one of the best times of my life. We'd feast on amazing Tandoori food, roam all the temporary military stables asking about the horses, drool over the HOTASS steeds from all the swank regiments.

It was one of the best times of my year and although I was never the super talented rider, I brought home my share of trophies and I was quite satisfied just being around so many horses. They were just magical but at the same time ephemeral and post partition anxiety lurked around for a few days after.

Riding formed such an integral part of my childhood, it made my life more wholesome and gave me a sense of belonging...

I was in a crabby mood till before this post and unsurprisingly, it's made me feel a lot better...

Did you have anything that you loved as a child?

At worst I feel bad for a while, but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

Things that make me smile:

1. Long searing HOT Showers with your speakers on full blast.
2. A new song to obsess over ( Current Obsession: The Man Who Can't be Moved)
3. Thinking of Exchange!! I wanna go FRANCE!! :)
4. Unaffordable Zara Jackets!
5. Baby clothes (:
6. Baby hair!!
7. Cute phone conversations ;)
8. Dressing up :D
9. When a sketch comes out well.
10. Trying on clothes I would never wear in public
11. Fashion Blogs <3
12. Dreaming in the Day.
13. Paris!
14. Cute guys
15. A chic gown!
16. Gossip Girl (Leighton Meester in particular)
17. Fashion Weeks
18. Sunglasses!!
19. Walking with my ipod on full blast!
20. Looking at GOOD shoes :)
21. Shopping
22. My cousins
23. My brother
24. Nostalgia :D
25. A cute greeting card.
26. Yummy food!
27. Vintage anything!
28. Cute texts!!!
29. Crushes and fantasizing ;)
30. Lenka- The Show! SO CUTE!!
31. That' s all for now! Will add more as I go along

Hee I LOVE lists :D

I <3 Brian!!

Now that is what I call HOT!!

Baby you can hit me anytime!

Another emergency post!

I LOVE Brian Kinney! aaaahhhhhhhhh

He's super duper whooper HOT!!

And he is So sexy, he knows exactly when to say what and how to say it...
I want him! Right here right now!

OMG I just rewatched QAF Season 1 Episode 1 and I'm in love with him all over again!
What is it about bad boys with the eyes of an angel!!

Here's the link! If you haven't seen the show, start watching NOW!!

"BTW, Gale (that's his real name) if you're reading this somewhere, I will take that rim job now !" :D

Awww I miss Queer As Folk now :( I think I'm gonna start rewatching :D

Giving Thanks

So it's Diwali and I'm sitting here doing...nothing. My stupid friends are planning to go to beach for one of their birthdays and I CANNOT imagine doing anything of the sort. I have conveniently backed out and will stay at home with a few friends, make a yummy indian meal and light diyas and do other Diwali stuff! I refuse to go to the beach on Diwali!! Sheer Blasphemy!!

And as I was thinking of Diwali at home I felt this strange sense of Nostalgia and gratitude for everyone in my life, and their little ways that make it special:

Thank you mommy for being yourself, and loving me lots!

Thanks for understanding and letting me grow

Thanks for restraining and giving me judgement

Thank you for your patience and for your trust

Thanks mummy for being my best friend

And teaching me how for myself to fend!

Thanks Dad, thanks for being there

Thanks for loving me even when I didn't care!

Thanks for pushing and guiding and telling me off

Thank you papa for for teaching me stuff.

I'v come so far, and you're the reason

Standing by me season by season

Thank you for never giving up on me

But your ideal I never could be

I wish I could but I don't think I can

I'm glad you have Bhai to be your kind of man

Thank You bhai, you're my best friend

There's no one else I'd have god rather send

You accept me with my flaws and love me still

And you're OK that I'm not run of the mill

I love you more than anyone else I know

And you're the best ever, bro!!

I hope we stay this close forever

Because I can't afford to lose you, ever...

My gramps I love you guys so much

Anything can be healed by Maa's touch

Dada you have loved me no matter what

Been proud of the tiny prizes, home I've brought

Thank you for your love and blessing

And your presence in my life, ever caressing

My girlfriend you are my love you know

My love for you will ever grow

My life I want to live with you

And my adoration for you is pure and true

Thanks for caring and believing in me

And I know sometimes my love you cannot see

But my love you must hold on

Because I cannot live without you gone

And finally my cook from home,

I miss you more than you would know

How you let me skip milk and made me fries

And your food always left me feeling nice

Your presence ensured a treat for sure

Thank you so much, you I adore!

My friends, you are, I'm proud to say

And we'll never part, oh nay

You guys stood by me, by my side

When the times warranted, a run and to hide

Thank you for being who you are

And accepting my flaws, holding me at par

Although we may not meet all the time

You guys are still all mine

So this is a pathetically written post, but it's mostly blurted out from the gut. This is how I feel right now and I'm in just a really joyous mood!!

Happy Diwali People! Let this year bring you all the success and love in the world :)